I feel weird when I watch it like that I can't breath and I let out a sob. There aren't any tears but I just kinda gasp instead of crying. It's odd. I can't get enough of Titanic though. It's just such an interesting subject. I feel like no matter how many times I watch it or how much I learn about it that I'll never completely understand and that they has to be something more to learn. There is always more information about Titanic just laying ahead. Even though it's sad, it makes me feel good. I feel like I have something to care about and I don't feel so empty and dumb. But I'm not dumb. If I can really just find something interesting and cool then that makes me feel wonderful. I must sound like a loser but I am having a hard time explaining this.


sincerely, Kelly.